Thursday, 24 May 2018

Holidays...idea generation time for M

We are currently on holiday. The weather has been unseasonably cold but we have nevertheless got out and about and cycled quite a bit.

Because we at usually so busy when working, it can be difficult to take the time to think about our FLR and bring something new. M pushes me on holiday and she demands my instant attention to her needs. She says always, this holiday I have booked "all inclusive"!

Today for example, it was particularly cold on our return cycling trip with a biting north easterly wind. M was frozen, so she took a long hot shower and went to bed with an electric blanket to try to warm up. She told me to fill a hot water bottle, which I did. I made her a cup of tea and I heated up a jam bun for her to eat. She then told me to take her damp clothing and find a good place for them to dry out.

After I had also showered, I got into bed to spoon M. She did not need to ask. I knew it was expected. So she lay there, still really cold, with her electric blanket, hot water bottle and human hot water bottle (me!). I started to say something to her and she simply replied...I want to go to sleep because then I will wakeup warm. Now, staying quiet and not talking is one of the most difficult things for me to do, but I immediately complied. We lay there for and hour until M was warm. In between we both drifted in an out of sleep.

I complied with M's wishes so readily, not only because it was the correct thing to do, which it was, but because not doing so risked increased pain tomorrow morning. M has thought about the FLR and determined that she is introducing daily maintenance spanking each morning from now on, also once the holiday is over. I get five with a wooden spoon as I lie across the bed. If I scream out or move , the five will start over again. So far I have managed it, but it takes real effort because the pain is severe.

After M was warm, she told me that I should start to pack her things as we will be moving on, early morning, in two days time and tomorrow we will be very busy meeting friends. So I got her suitcase and she instructed me which clothes to pack, which to put aside for me to wash, and which to keep out for her to wear in the next two days. After I finished packing her things, I then packed mine.

It was then time to go out from something to eat and we had a lovely meal overlooking a river. Naturally M had the seat that provided the better view.

I love it when M instructs and pushes me like she did today. It meets my needs, and hers too.


Monday, 14 May 2018

Eating Humble Pie

Well not quite humble pie per sae.....Asparagus.

M loves it. She cooked a saucepan full last Thursday, which was a public holiday here. She cooked it for both of us, knowing that I didn't want to eat it. But she didn't care.

In the end I swallowed one, just one. And that without chewing.Not very adventurous.

On Friday, M let me know how disappointed she was with my behavior. She said she was cooking it again Sunday and she expected no repeat of my behavior Thursday.

Saturday night she did a hypnosis session with me where she implanted that I would eat the asparagus, normally, without discussion and without making faces. She can't fully hypnotize me but it definitely has an effect. We have tried it before and it is behavior modifying to some degree.

As added incentive she offered me a "rebate" of one less blow with the wooden spoon for each asparagus eaten. I have worked a lot of hours recently and I was due 40 "Schlaege" (German for blows or hits).

So I did as she directed and ate 26 asparagus stalks, without making faces or resisting in any way.

Humble pie indeed.

I am back wearing my strings again at the moment, Sunday to Thursday.


Tuesday, 1 May 2018

Frustrating time is hopefully nearly over

After my recent mishap,  I am finally starting to walk again without using crutches.  My thoughts are turning to picking up my household duties again. That said, I have tried to do one or two things in the last week, as best I could. I prepared breakfast at the weekend and I did one load of washing. But, for example, standing at the ironing board for a long time was impossible.

M has been very supportive. I offered her a back massage earlier today but she told me that she thinks I am not yet well enough to be doing this. She wants me to take the time to really recover.

Despite the fact that my normal household duties fell by the wayside, M, as always, was very creative in the exercise of her control. One evening for example, she announced that it was bedtime, shortly after I had booted the laptop to surf. It was her way of ensuring my speedy recovery while showing who the boss is, in the house.

The end of April proved to be quite warm here in Germany and M used the opportunity to fetch something she had bought on the surprise shopping trip that I had not yet worn. It was another way of saying, service might be temporarily suspended but don't think you are on equal footing here! I spent the whole week sleeping in the new pink negligée. Any thoughts of being the alpha male in the household were quickly banished, especially as M took every opportunity to remark how well I looked in my lovely attire!

One thing I can be sure of is that this brief interruption to normal duties has only strengthened M's resolve in respect of the FLR. I can expect to play "catch-up" for quite a while once I am again fully healthy.

We both now have three incredibly busy weeks ahead of us in work as we are both overloaded at present. What will sustain us is the two weeks vacation overseas  that we have planned for the end of May


Friday, 27 April 2018

Lange her

Hanna und ich waren sehr beschäftigt die in den letzten Wochen . Daher gab es lange keinen Blog.
Und dann auch noch das! Hanna hatte einen schlimmen Fahrradunfall.

Bei einer gemeinsamen Fahrradtour fing ihr Rad plötzlich an, unkontrolliert zu schwingen. Sie konnte es nicht mehr kontrollieren. Wir sind bergab gefahren, Daher waren wir sehr schnell.

Hanna versuchte zu bremsen aber das verschlimmerte die Situation. So kam es, dass sie in die Leitplanke fuhr.... mit 60 km/h. Das Fahrrad blieb vor der Leitplanke zurück. Die Gabel völlig demoliert.

Ich kam einige Sekunden später um die Kurve gefahren. Was ich sah, mich in einen Schock. Das kaputte Fahrrad vor der Leitplanke und von Hanna keine Spur. Doch da kamen auch schon andere Menschen herbeigeeilt. Ich rief einem zu, den Notruf zu abzusetzten.

Ich bin so schnell wie ich konnte zu Hanna runtergerannt. Völlig betäubt, weil ich nicht wusste, wie schlimm es war. Glücklicherweise war sie ansprechbar und sie bestätigte mir sofort, dass bis auf ihr Fußgelenk alles einigermaßen ok sei.

Ok. Diese Woche war hart. Hanna war krankgeschrieben, hat aber von zu Hause gearbeitet. Ich musste alles andere erledigen. Wir kamsen vom Urlaub zurück. Also das volle Programm. Koffer auspacken, Wäsche waschen und bügeln, einkaufen. Und natürlich zur Arbeit gehen.

Hanna musste tagsüber irgendwie alleine zurecht kommen. Abends habe ich mich dann um sie gekümmert.

In dieser Woche ist mir aufgefallen, wie viel Hanna sonst immer tut. Diese Woche zeigte mir, wie weit unsere FLR fortgeschritten ist, weil sie so viel im Haushalt macht. Nicht alles ist immer perfekt oder so wie ich es eigentlich möchte. Aber sie ist niemals böse, wenn ich sie korrigiere oder ihr zeige, wie es besser geht. Diese Fortschritte waren nun alle über Nacht zunichte gemacht worden.

Ich hatte wieder die ganze Last des Haushalts zu tragen. Für mich steht fest, dass ich nie wieder in so einer Beziehung leben möchte. FLR ist eine Win-Win-Situation für alle. Es macht Männer glücklich, uns zu dienen und wir sind glücklich, bedient zu werden. Gleichzeitig freuen wir uns, wenn wir die ungeteilte Aufmerksamkeit unseres „kleinen Sklaven“ erfreuen dürfen.

Also Frauen! Freut Euch, wenn euer Mann Euch eine FLR-Beziehung anbietet. Wenn ihr die Macht, die er Euch gibt, richtig nutzt, wird es eine erfüllende Beziehung sein, die ihr nicht mehr eintauschen möchtet.

Heute, am Freitag geht es Hanna wieder einigermaßen gut. Sie hat mir eben mein Laptop gebracht, um den Blog zu schreiben. Vorher hat sie das Abendessen zubereitet. Back to normal again!!!

Monday, 9 April 2018

A fews days back :-)

You know that feeling. You have been in the office for 3 hours after holidays and you wonder were you away at all! Both M and I had it last week.

We were both once again back to working long hours against tight deadlines. I had caught a cold skiing so it was a real struggle. I infected M during the week and she is now down with sore throat and all the usual symptoms.

That said, the weather this weekend was great and we barbequed both evenings. The first evening was with M's family. Wow, did she boss me around. On four occasions I was sent to fetch something and bring it back to her. And another time she demanded my mobile phone as I was using it because she wanted to surf for something. He brother actually laughed. Naturally I complied immediately.

I felt a bit self-conscious  as I sat there in a female T shirt and shorts with my blue sleeveless jacket. At one stage I could feel the strap of my pink bra slipping down over my shoulder and I just hoped it did not fall below the end of the sleeve. It didn't and I managed to adjust it after a while without anyone noticing.

I should have got 6 spanks on Friday as I was 8.5 hours over my contract in the 4 days last week so that ate up all my credit and left me 3 hours over. But with M being ill, she has saved them up to be added to next Fridays lot.

I am away on a foreign business trip next week for 4 days. It will coincide with M's periods and she told me tonight that I can forget about wearing normal underwear when I am away. I will be wearing the strings! Not exactly ideal for an airplane and long days in a conference, but as M likes to remind me often....the rules are the rules.


Wednesday, 28 March 2018

A few days away.

M and I are on a short break before Easter. So, it seems, are half of Germany, judging by the amount of traffic on the roads last weekend. We required 70% more travel time than the Sat Nav had first announced!

M had a new surprise for me before we left for the trip. She told me that the clothes and other things that she wanted to bring on the trip were lying on her bed. She told me to go upstairs and pack them!
When we got to our destination, naturally my job was also to unpack and put her clothes in the wardrobe and her toiletries in the bathroom.

I have been skiing in the mornings. M has limited interest in skiing, partaking occasionally. As the snow softens up quickly in the afternoon, I don't bother skiing past 2pm. Instead we have cycled a couple of afternoons.

M loves the feeling of "remote control", so when I go skiing she insists that I wear a sports bra and a female base layer. She says I can think of her whenever I become aware of them and maybe I will also ski more carefully. The first is true, the second not!

This afternoon, we went on a city trip, sadly spoiled by heavy rain, not previously forecasted. For the first time, M had me wear shiny trousers, that she bought for me some time ago. I was self-conscious the whole time. Naturally all the other clothes, apart from my shoes, were female too, albeit close enough almost to pass. This included the female knitted hoody that she bought on our surprise shopping trip. At least it covered up the t-shirt which is also an M purchase. On it, in shiny silver letters is Be Different spelled backwards!! However, such little advantages matter little when one is wearing shiny trousers!

We ate in a restaurant tonight. Thankfully it was almost empty when we entered and we got a place in the corner of the room. Unfortunately, as we were leaving it was already quite full and I had to run the gauntlet of the entire room to the exit. I did not make eye contact with anyone but felt a thousand eyes looking in my direction as I passed. Probably my overactive imagination, but nevertheless it was a very uncomfortable feeling for me. My ski tan hopefully hid my blushing cheeks!


Monday, 26 March 2018

Making her addicted

Hanna has an easy key to make my life with her very easy. She has to be really horny and desperate. Then she does everything for me and she has the right attitude. Very important is no real orgasms but instead getting her erect as often as possible. I programmed her, that touching her nipples gets her erect. When she is horny, this only needs 15 seconds and she is "ready".

The key to this behaviour is orgasm denial. She gets free orgasms twice a year. One in December and one in June/July. Everything in between is my decision.

We are on holidays now. Usually she might get one more in between, that means end of March would be the time. But maybe she will get only a ruined orgasm. This lets her come back more quickly - usually after 5 days she is completely back. After a real orgasm she needs nearly 3 weeks to be really back. These days are always very annoying because she complains too much. For example: she gets low credits on our point/money system. Then she says "but I did this, and I did that". I just say "Bullshit!" You didnt have the right attitude at all. And I still had to do so many things, that you didnt see.

So restricting her orgasms puts her in  "hunting mode". This makes it so easy to control her. I can't say it enough. This is the key to a happy relationship.


Wednesday, 21 March 2018

It's like a drug

I often tell M that I am addicted to her. It is the truth. I guess I am also addicted to FLR. In large part my last long term relationship broke down after I had tried to introduce it more than once. It never seemed to fit and we always reverted back to vanilla after a short period.

With M, it has been different. Her previous partner often complained that she was way too bossy. So taking charge from the start was natural for her. We had a long distance relationship for quite a while before I emigrated to be with her full time. I now live in her house.

I am dependent on her to navigate all the German bureaucracy that I need to interact with. She does all the "brainy" things now and I do the manual tasks. In my previous relationship, I did all the things that M does for me now. All of this leads to a natural power exchange.

As we have written before, M drafted a contract which I signed on my second day in Germany. She brought me to a secluded place by a lake, and asked me was I serious about signing it. She explained that it was a one way street and that there was no going back. From then on, she would make all the important decisions about my life and would have the last say on everything.

I told her I wanted to sign. So she told me, there and then, to strip completely naked and to sign the contract with no clothes on to signify that any rights I got in future would come from her. There were people about 400 metres away, further along the bank, but I had some tree cover. It was still a very risky and embarrassing situation, but I did it. After making me wait a minute or two to emphasize my new helplessness, she allowed me to dress, and we packed up and went home.

After my hesitation yesterday in complying with M's rule that I dress female at home in the evenings, I made sure to do it without prompting tonight.

Tuesday, 20 March 2018


Hanna was late home again today. Another long working day. After our dinner she sat there and took her phone to surf. I didn't see it immediately, because I went upstairs.

After coming down, I noticed it. I said to her that this was against our rules. I sent her upstairs to change into women's clothes.

She protested. I said "es ist mir scheissegal"(I could not give a s**t). Change and don't complain. Its not my fault, that you came home so late. And don't ever complain! Be obedient and do it as fast as you can.

She went and changed into her black knitted dress. Her money earned today will be very small after this mistake. Attitude is everything. She will never understand it.


Friday, 16 March 2018

Friday spanking again. "Hoch dein Rock und hol den Stock."

Hoch die Haende...Wochenende. So sagen Menschen hier Freitag nachmittags. Aber fuer mich wuerde man besser sagen... Hoch  dein Rock und hol den Stock.

Germans love their weekends. Hoch die Haende ...Wochende translates directly to "hands up, it's the weekend". In English we simply say TGIF !

For me however, it would be more apt to say, raise your skirt and fetch the stick (or wooden spoon in  my case). Work hours were again a disaster. I worked 9 hours over my  (40 hour) contract this week.
18 blows with the wooden spoon awaited me tonight.

M had mislaid a hat she uses for cycling and she offered me a 3 blow reduction if I found it. I searched for one hour but no success. She was kind and gave me a 2 blow remission in any case for my efforts.

M was tired and not in the mood to punish me. I told her not to bother, greatly relieved that I might get a last minute reprieve, like a man suddenly freed from prison. However, she said that strictness was necessary and important. Schade!

My rear end is still bruised from last week's beating. Those 30 blows had hurt so much. The small red mark below was from a "playful" blow she gave me through my clothes before we even started! That says it all about the pain level. It is unreal.

As I related in my last post, M had warned me not to miss the social event on Thursday. I was a couple of minutes late but I did not miss it, so at least this week there would be no "extra hard" blows to endure. That said, I knew how much it would hurt.

My normal punishment underwear was in the washing machine so M told me to put on a string instead. Having tied me securely so that I could not move, she pulled up my dress and pulled down my tights and started.

After 2 blows I was already begging for a pause. The pain of continuous blows is unbearable. So after each blow or two, with me pleading for more time, she would pause for maybe 10 seconds and then resume.

It seemed to last forever and again I was sweating profusely by the end. I was very happy that it was not 30 like last week and that I had taken my 5 "weekend working" blows on Sunday last instead.

So the stinging has not subsided as I sit here writing this and the blue area of my rear end will be even bigger over the next few days.


Sunday, 11 March 2018

That hurt a lot!

I can safely say that the spanking on Friday evening was the most painful yet, by far. M said afterwards that she gave me some extra hard blows because I had missed the social event on Thursday.

Today, she said about Friday, "it cannot have been too bad. You did not cry". 😕😕 I was screaming from the pain of the blows. She told me to be quieter. She had put a Schnuller (Baby dummy) in my mouth and tied a scarf tightly around my head to keep it in place. But seemingly I was still to loud.

I struggled a lot with the first set of blows and although she had tied me so I was largely immobile, I kept falling to one side.  I would struggle and she would help me back up straight again. After 16 blows, I lost all the fight in me and just lay to one side . I stopped struggling to get some control and just gave up. I was sobbing and whimpering (but M says that is not crying!). I just wanted it over.

M was happier at that stage and just kept beating on the same point. 14 more blows. She was determined to leave some marks that lasted most of the next week. I was mentally exhausted and sweating profusely when she stopped.

I looked today and my rear end has a few colours including red blue and purple. But at least the pain is gone.

She reminded me today that we have an important group activity in that social circle next Thursday. She said I will not survive the pain if I miss it again. I hope not to miss it. I am busy in work but I just have to get out Thursday!

I needed to do about 2.5 hour work yesterday to finish some stuff that is urgent in the office. So that meant another 5 blows. I asked M if I could have them this evening instead of next Friday, to clean the slate, so to speak. I am scared of building up too many hours, now that M has upped the punishment to 2 per hour "over" worked.

Thankfully she decided to attack the other cheek today. OMG the pain was again terrible. She knows how to use that wooden spoon. I HATE the thing, and fear it now to be honest. But at least I am back to zero again to start the work week.

I was busy this weekend. M had a number of things outside in the garden that she needed help with. Then I spent today fixing up an old bike she has that she wants to sell. We spent last night at a friends house and she enjoyed bossing me around more than usual. She knows I become more obedient and docile after a beating!


Holidays...idea generation time for M

We are currently on holiday. The weather has been unseasonably cold but we have nevertheless got out and about and cycled quite a bit. Bec...