This post is all about....

Well, if I am honest, I have no idea. M just ordered me to write a new post. I had suggested that she write a post as I am quite certain that the readership would find this infinitely more interesting than another post from me.

So perhaps, by way of an update, let me cover where we are now on one of the "5 Food Groups".

Sex.

Well of course M controls that completely. I do get many "entrances" and lots of teasing but no orgasms. I have an opportunity to get an orgasm twice a year now. We play a game of Kniffel (Yatzee). If I win, I get one, if not...tough luck. High stakes indeed. We have a 50% record each in term of our long term play in this game, so the fact that I have won the last 4 games when playing for the ultimate prize is quite amazing.  I know M gave it her 100% best effort each time.  Of course my luck will change and that plays on my mind. If I lose 4 in a row, that will be 2.5 years without a release!

One thing that has grown during our FLR is M indulging her sadistic side. There is no longer any pleasure for me without some matching element of pain. During our intimate times she loves to twist my nipples until I squeal and she uses her very sharp teeth to add pain to my ear lobe. Doing this seems to bring me to the ultimate tease point much more quickly. As I try to make the sessions longer, she simply ups the torture and inevitably I reach the end point much more quickly, where I can no longer guarantee control. She effectively controls not just the timing of our sex (I am forbidden to ask, she must offer) but the duration and how quickly and how often she wants to bring me to the edge.

I will find the time to write about the other food groups over the coming weeks. Perhaps we can persuade M to give her perspective on a few of these too.

Wishing everyone a good evening.

Hanna

Our FLR is alive and growing.

We have not even checked the blog for almost 18 months, but on a whim I checked in tonight not expecting to see any comments. There was a comment from "Glow", which we were happy to see and it prompted us to leave a comment back.

I guess the reason we let it drop is that is easy for the blog to become a driver...almost like needing to have something to publish. Also it was a bit unnerving that the only comments we got in the period before our pause related to spanking etc... it felt a little like voyeurism.

So, we are still in a very successful FLR. We have both said recently that we need this lifestyle to be truly happy.

Things evolve. I am more restricted now than ever, but this is what I also need. 

In the past year M has taken up dancing, for which she has a passion. I did not get a choice. She mentioned it to me this time last year. I expressed my view that I cannot dance and really had no interest in it. Come Christmas Day, guess what was wrapped for me under the tree. DANCING SHOES. Needless to say, I am now dancing three times a week. Surprisingly, I actually can...LOL.

Thanks for posting your comment Glow. We will blog again, perhaps on a less regular basis but with a series of blogs that are more an update on how our lives continue to evolve.

Holidays...idea generation time for M

We are currently on holiday. The weather has been unseasonably cold but we have nevertheless got out and about and cycled quite a bit.

Because we at usually so busy when working, it can be difficult to take the time to think about our FLR and bring something new. M pushes me on holiday and she demands my instant attention to her needs. She says always, this holiday I have booked "all inclusive"!

Today for example, it was particularly cold on our return cycling trip with a biting north easterly wind. M was frozen, so she took a long hot shower and went to bed with an electric blanket to try to warm up. She told me to fill a hot water bottle, which I did. I made her a cup of tea and I heated up a jam bun for her to eat. She then told me to take her damp clothing and find a good place for them to dry out.

After I had also showered, I got into bed to spoon M. She did not need to ask. I knew it was expected. So she lay there, still really cold, with her electric blanket, hot water bottle and human hot water bottle (me!). I started to say something to her and she simply replied...I want to go to sleep because then I will wakeup warm. Now, staying quiet and not talking is one of the most difficult things for me to do, but I immediately complied. We lay there for and hour until M was warm. In between we both drifted in an out of sleep.

I complied with M's wishes so readily, not only because it was the correct thing to do, which it was, but because not doing so risked increased pain tomorrow morning. M has thought about the FLR and determined that she is introducing daily maintenance spanking each morning from now on, also once the holiday is over. I get five with a wooden spoon as I lie across the bed. If I scream out or move , the five will start over again. So far I have managed it, but it takes real effort because the pain is severe.

After M was warm, she told me that I should start to pack her things as we will be moving on, early morning, in two days time and tomorrow we will be very busy meeting friends. So I got her suitcase and she instructed me which clothes to pack, which to put aside for me to wash, and which to keep out for her to wear in the next two days. After I finished packing her things, I then packed mine.

It was then time to go out from something to eat and we had a lovely meal overlooking a river. Naturally M had the seat that provided the better view.

I love it when M instructs and pushes me like she did today. It meets my needs, and hers too.

Hanna

Eating Humble Pie

Well not quite humble pie per sae.....Asparagus.

M loves it. She cooked a saucepan full last Thursday, which was a public holiday here. She cooked it for both of us, knowing that I didn't want to eat it. But she didn't care.

In the end I swallowed one, just one. And that without chewing.Not very adventurous.

On Friday, M let me know how disappointed she was with my behavior. She said she was cooking it again Sunday and she expected no repeat of my behavior Thursday.

Saturday night she did a hypnosis session with me where she implanted that I would eat the asparagus, normally, without discussion and without making faces. She can't fully hypnotize me but it definitely has an effect. We have tried it before and it is behavior modifying to some degree.

As added incentive she offered me a "rebate" of one less blow with the wooden spoon for each asparagus eaten. I have worked a lot of hours recently and I was due 40 "Schlaege" (German for blows or hits).

So I did as she directed and ate 26 asparagus stalks, without making faces or resisting in any way.

Humble pie indeed.

I am back wearing my strings again at the moment, Sunday to Thursday.

Hanna

Frustrating time is hopefully nearly over

After my recent mishap,  I am finally starting to walk again without using crutches.  My thoughts are turning to picking up my household duties again. That said, I have tried to do one or two things in the last week, as best I could. I prepared breakfast at the weekend and I did one load of washing. But, for example, standing at the ironing board for a long time was impossible.

M has been very supportive. I offered her a back massage earlier today but she told me that she thinks I am not yet well enough to be doing this. She wants me to take the time to really recover.

Despite the fact that my normal household duties fell by the wayside, M, as always, was very creative in the exercise of her control. One evening for example, she announced that it was bedtime, shortly after I had booted the laptop to surf. It was her way of ensuring my speedy recovery while showing who the boss is, in the house.

The end of April proved to be quite warm here in Germany and M used the opportunity to fetch something she had bought on the surprise shopping trip that I had not yet worn. It was another way of saying, service might be temporarily suspended but don't think you are on equal footing here! I spent the whole week sleeping in the new pink negligée. Any thoughts of being the alpha male in the household were quickly banished, especially as M took every opportunity to remark how well I looked in my lovely attire!

One thing I can be sure of is that this brief interruption to normal duties has only strengthened M's resolve in respect of the FLR. I can expect to play "catch-up" for quite a while once I am again fully healthy.

We both now have three incredibly busy weeks ahead of us in work as we are both overloaded at present. What will sustain us is the two weeks vacation overseas  that we have planned for the end of May

Hanna. 

Lange her

Hanna und ich waren sehr beschäftigt die in den letzten Wochen . Daher gab es lange keinen Blog.

Und dann auch noch das! Hanna hatte einen schlimmen Fahrradunfall.

Bei einer gemeinsamen Fahrradtour fing ihr Rad plötzlich an, unkontrolliert zu schwingen. Sie konnte es nicht mehr kontrollieren. Wir sind bergab gefahren, Daher waren wir sehr schnell.

Hanna versuchte zu bremsen aber das verschlimmerte die Situation. So kam es, dass sie in die Leitplanke fuhr.... mit 60 km/h. Das Fahrrad blieb vor der Leitplanke zurück. Die Gabel völlig demoliert.

Ich kam einige Sekunden später um die Kurve gefahren. Was ich sah, mich in einen Schock. Das kaputte Fahrrad vor der Leitplanke und von Hanna keine Spur. Doch da kamen auch schon andere Menschen herbeigeeilt. Ich rief einem zu, den Notruf zu abzusetzten.

Ich bin so schnell wie ich konnte zu Hanna runtergerannt. Völlig betäubt, weil ich nicht wusste, wie schlimm es war. Glücklicherweise war sie ansprechbar und sie bestätigte mir sofort, dass bis auf ihr Fußgelenk alles einigermaßen ok sei.

Ok. Diese Woche war hart. Hanna war krankgeschrieben, hat aber von zu Hause gearbeitet. Ich musste alles andere erledigen. Wir kamsen vom Urlaub zurück. Also das volle Programm. Koffer auspacken, Wäsche waschen und bügeln, einkaufen. Und natürlich zur Arbeit gehen.

Hanna musste tagsüber irgendwie alleine zurecht kommen. Abends habe ich mich dann um sie gekümmert.

In dieser Woche ist mir aufgefallen, wie viel Hanna sonst immer tut. Diese Woche zeigte mir, wie weit unsere FLR fortgeschritten ist, weil sie so viel im Haushalt macht. Nicht alles ist immer perfekt oder so wie ich es eigentlich möchte. Aber sie ist niemals böse, wenn ich sie korrigiere oder ihr zeige, wie es besser geht. Diese Fortschritte waren nun alle über Nacht zunichte gemacht worden.

Ich hatte wieder die ganze Last des Haushalts zu tragen. Für mich steht fest, dass ich nie wieder in so einer Beziehung leben möchte. FLR ist eine Win-Win-Situation für alle. Es macht Männer glücklich, uns zu dienen und wir sind glücklich, bedient zu werden. Gleichzeitig freuen wir uns, wenn wir die ungeteilte Aufmerksamkeit unseres „kleinen Sklaven“ erfreuen dürfen.

Also Frauen! Freut Euch, wenn euer Mann Euch eine FLR-Beziehung anbietet. Wenn ihr die Macht, die er Euch gibt, richtig nutzt, wird es eine erfüllende Beziehung sein, die ihr nicht mehr eintauschen möchtet.

Heute, am Freitag geht es Hanna wieder einigermaßen gut. Sie hat mir eben mein Laptop gebracht, um den Blog zu schreiben. Vorher hat sie das Abendessen zubereitet. Back to normal again!!!

M.

A fews days back :-)

You know that feeling. You have been in the office for 3 hours after holidays and you wonder were you away at all! Both M and I had it last week.

We were both once again back to working long hours against tight deadlines. I had caught a cold skiing so it was a real struggle. I infected M during the week and she is now down with sore throat and all the usual symptoms.

That said, the weather this weekend was great and we barbequed both evenings. The first evening was with M's family. Wow, did she boss me around. On four occasions I was sent to fetch something and bring it back to her. And another time she demanded my mobile phone as I was using it because she wanted to surf for something. He brother actually laughed. Naturally I complied immediately.

I felt a bit self-conscious  as I sat there in a female T shirt and shorts with my blue sleeveless jacket. At one stage I could feel the strap of my pink bra slipping down over my shoulder and I just hoped it did not fall below the end of the sleeve. It didn't and I managed to adjust it after a while without anyone noticing.

I should have got 6 spanks on Friday as I was 8.5 hours over my contract in the 4 days last week so that ate up all my credit and left me 3 hours over. But with M being ill, she has saved them up to be added to next Fridays lot.

I am away on a foreign business trip next week for 4 days. It will coincide with M's periods and she told me tonight that I can forget about wearing normal underwear when I am away. I will be wearing the strings! Not exactly ideal for an airplane and long days in a conference, but as M likes to remind me often....the rules are the rules.


Hanna

A few days away.

M and I are on a short break before Easter. So, it seems, are half of Germany, judging by the amount of traffic on the roads last weekend. We required 70% more travel time than the Sat Nav had first announced!

M had a new surprise for me before we left for the trip. She told me that the clothes and other things that she wanted to bring on the trip were lying on her bed. She told me to go upstairs and pack them!
When we got to our destination, naturally my job was also to unpack and put her clothes in the wardrobe and her toiletries in the bathroom.

I have been skiing in the mornings. M has limited interest in skiing, partaking occasionally. As the snow softens up quickly in the afternoon, I don't bother skiing past 2pm. Instead we have cycled a couple of afternoons.

M loves the feeling of "remote control", so when I go skiing she insists that I wear a sports bra and a female base layer. She says I can think of her whenever I become aware of them and maybe I will also ski more carefully. The first is true, the second not!

This afternoon, we went on a city trip, sadly spoiled by heavy rain, not previously forecasted. For the first time, M had me wear shiny trousers, that she bought for me some time ago. I was self-conscious the whole time. Naturally all the other clothes, apart from my shoes, were female too, albeit close enough almost to pass. This included the female knitted hoody that she bought on our surprise shopping trip. At least it covered up the t-shirt which is also an M purchase. On it, in shiny silver letters is Be Different spelled backwards!! However, such little advantages matter little when one is wearing shiny trousers!

We ate in a restaurant tonight. Thankfully it was almost empty when we entered and we got a place in the corner of the room. Unfortunately, as we were leaving it was already quite full and I had to run the gauntlet of the entire room to the exit. I did not make eye contact with anyone but felt a thousand eyes looking in my direction as I passed. Probably my overactive imagination, but nevertheless it was a very uncomfortable feeling for me. My ski tan hopefully hid my blushing cheeks!

Hanna

Making her addicted

Hanna has an easy key to make my life with her very easy. She has to be really horny and desperate. Then she does everything for me and she has the right attitude. Very important is no real orgasms but instead getting her erect as often as possible. I programmed her, that touching her nipples gets her erect. When she is horny, this only needs 15 seconds and she is "ready".

The key to this behaviour is orgasm denial. She gets free orgasms twice a year. One in December and one in June/July. Everything in between is my decision.

We are on holidays now. Usually she might get one more in between, that means end of March would be the time. But maybe she will get only a ruined orgasm. This lets her come back more quickly - usually after 5 days she is completely back. After a real orgasm she needs nearly 3 weeks to be really back. These days are always very annoying because she complains too much. For example: she gets low credits on our point/money system. Then she says "but I did this, and I did that". I just say "Bullshit!" You didnt have the right attitude at all. And I still had to do so many things, that you didnt see.

So restricting her orgasms puts her in  "hunting mode". This makes it so easy to control her. I can't say it enough. This is the key to a happy relationship.

M.

It's like a drug

I often tell M that I am addicted to her. It is the truth. I guess I am also addicted to FLR. In large part my last long term relationship broke down after I had tried to introduce it more than once. It never seemed to fit and we always reverted back to vanilla after a short period.

With M, it has been different. Her previous partner often complained that she was way too bossy. So taking charge from the start was natural for her. We had a long distance relationship for quite a while before I emigrated to be with her full time. I now live in her house.

I am dependent on her to navigate all the German bureaucracy that I need to interact with. She does all the "brainy" things now and I do the manual tasks. In my previous relationship, I did all the things that M does for me now. All of this leads to a natural power exchange.

As we have written before, M drafted a contract which I signed on my second day in Germany. She brought me to a secluded place by a lake, and asked me was I serious about signing it. She explained that it was a one way street and that there was no going back. From then on, she would make all the important decisions about my life and would have the last say on everything.

I told her I wanted to sign. So she told me, there and then, to strip completely naked and to sign the contract with no clothes on to signify that any rights I got in future would come from her. There were people about 400 metres away, further along the bank, but I had some tree cover. It was still a very risky and embarrassing situation, but I did it. After making me wait a minute or two to emphasize my new helplessness, she allowed me to dress, and we packed up and went home.

After my hesitation yesterday in complying with M's rule that I dress female at home in the evenings, I made sure to do it without prompting tonight.

Hanna

scheissegal

Hanna was late home again today. Another long working day. After our dinner she sat there and took her phone to surf. I didn't see it immediately, because I went upstairs.

After coming down, I noticed it. I said to her that this was against our rules. I sent her upstairs to change into women's clothes.

She protested. I said "es ist mir scheissegal"(I could not give a s**t). Change and don't complain. Its not my fault, that you came home so late. And don't ever complain! Be obedient and do it as fast as you can.

She went and changed into her black knitted dress. Her money earned today will be very small after this mistake. Attitude is everything. She will never understand it.

M